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WELCOME Once in awhile, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale. What the heart gives away its never gone but kept in the hearts of the others. To truly love another means to let go of all expectations and having full acceptance. In melody divine, my heart beats to rapturous love to call you mine ღ Profile Viewing ♥
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Things are halfway through...
May 15, 2008 @ 4:35 PM
Today, my papa and mama came to my school to sign for the tuition grant. Okay, I had western food for lunch, my dad treat me :) Ok and they want to see the hostel and they went to pay the hostel admin fee. Actually, I have alot of doubts into whether did I make the right choice nto choosing to get into the hostel and let my mama go back to malaysia. After what my mother friend had talk to me, I started to question myself whether I am only thinking for myself and have neglected my mother's feel, and I think I am now also questioning myself whether I am very selfish and am I doing my part as a daugther. I am feeling so guilty and is still reflecting about what the friend of my mama had said, what should I do, what is it that actually that I want and what should I do and what is the desicion that I should make that can both benefit me and my parents. Ya, I have thought of that, if my mam were to go back to malaysia then what about her spiritual life and what about her ? I did not spare a thought for her and just want to get what I want. I really do not know what is the thing that I should do that will not make her suffer. Although they have already paid for the hostel and if they were to change the desicion I will confirm agree with them and I will not hasitate to agree with them and respect their decision. I am sorry for my selfishness, and I am sorry for things that I have done. Labels: I am very guilty... |