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WELCOME Once in awhile, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale. What the heart gives away its never gone but kept in the hearts of the others. To truly love another means to let go of all expectations and having full acceptance. In melody divine, my heart beats to rapturous love to call you mine ღ Profile Viewing ♥
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November 2, 2009 @ 10:13 PM
New start of the month. Many things are on-going. Sighs. I'm tired. Asthma attack. Shortness of breath. Yesterday, went to catch [Jennifer's Body] It's so ..... Speechless. And thanks to Kayden Thanks him : for coming to accompany even he already watched for telling me to watch those I shouldn't watch for telling me to not waste money and continue watching and for accompanying til so late. So, 7 of us: CK, Zulliiee, Sydney, Suraj, Girlfriend, Kayden and me was talking some crap before all of them left. Suraj, Girlfriend, Kayden and me stayed there till 3am So everyone headed back den. Didn't go school but headed to the library to study at 2pm Glad that UT isn't that difficult. **smiles. Today is so cold. Just encounter an attack Went under the rain somemore. Strong isn't it ? Kays, now what. Mum is coming on wed. Means no smoking for dunnoe how many days Damn. I called her today afternoon We both weren't talking the way we should So ending up hanging up the phone. Now, back to the good-girl-next-door. Though I aren't bad to that extend But seriously I am tired of being the good girl The girl that always heads to a place after school Home and no where. **Dang. Who ask that to be my fate Who ask me to be the only child Who ask me to be a girl and not boy Indeed, if Girlfriend is beside me She'll ask me not to complain so much. **sarcastically laughing. Whatever, though its true. It's been so long since I last saw my parents I feel pissed and uneasy not because she's coming I don't want them to be disappointed when they see me Seeing that their only precious turning into not want they want I don't want to disappoint them and I feel shame Though this is the way I want to live my life Though the choice of the route will lead to many factors Though the path will not be that smooth Though I am already suffering in this choice of life. Yes, I am leading a screwed-up life. Yes, I am not a person to be bad. Yes, I am not suitable to be a SOMEBODY Yes, I am seen to be an ah-lian When I can lead a simple life A life where everything goes the way it should Where everything is so systematic Systematic to the extent where nothing will go wrong I am proud that I had walked this far I am proud that I can deceive myself for so long How I hope I can have the courage to hang on How I hope I can walk this path that I have chose I hope I wasn't wrong. Sometimes, life is just like a show.... Introduction, Climax, Ending.... |